Perhaps the dilemma should have come first in the list but it sounded best this way! I have had grand plans for decorating this year and guess what! I got nothing. No outside lights, no inside lights, no wreath on the front door – nothing! I am in great need of a holiday infusion – the Remicade infusion unfortunately wasn’t enough to get me my Christmas mojo back. I am feeling better however, so hopefully my dilemma really isn’t one at all.
Dilemma: to decorate or not?
It would be another year of great intentions but scraping by on the minimum if I take a pass on the plans I had for this year. So many years a feeling of dread overcomes me about all the time and energy that it takes to put up all of the lovely Christmas items and the tree. I’ve gone all out in the past but not so much in recent years. I love doing it so why do I feel the sense of dread? I think part of is that we don’t have children running around. I don’t have the joys that come with sharing Christmas with a family and that is a deep sadness that comes with this time of year. Holidays can be difficult for people for so many reasons but I need to release these ties of emotions to a time that is so beautiful. Sometimes it is difficult to discern between what we pass on in life because of chronic illness and what we pass on because of other things. I need to admit to myself where this one falls out and get over myself! SO – That’s it – I’ve talked or blogged myself into doing it up right this year so tomorrow we lose our scrooge-yness and get a move on. I’ll let you know how it all works out.
Tomorrow we (yes sweetie – you too) will be hooking up some Christmas cheer. First on the agenda is the tree after some Alpaca babysitting. You heard that correctly! We’re going all in – better late than never.
Have a beautiful and peaceful day.
P.S. What do you think of this design for our Christmas cards? (haven’t started them either – uugh!)