Life has so many energy traps! Everywhere we turn we can fall into them but what continues to surprise me is that often we almost leap into their pit with an amazing amount of free will. I’ve been in a deep one lately – way deep down in the muck.
And – I stayed there! I let myself stay stuck in this dark and unproductive, unpurposeful place. Like a pit of quicksand holding me, sinking me. I’ve had glimpses of the light above and attempts of escaping only to be pulled back down. I am trying to recognize these traps for what they are – a waste of precious passion and energy. I will work on it day after day and hope to learn how to steer clear. It is life work – a daily practice of looking around to see if I’m putting energy on unproductive thoughts, conversations, projects, and people.
Why do we allow this in our lives?
I think perhaps it is easier to get lost in these deep pits when life is in flux. I have been struggling with the let down of finishing a very intense year. I’ve been spinning around looking at my options and while I’ve been spinning I became lost. When we’re lost the gravity pulls so heavily on us and then it’s like being in a tilt-o-whirl, stuck to the sides yet hanging on for dear life just waiting for the ride to stop.
I’ve been taking a close look at each potential path. All options ahead of me have looked really great from the spot of my crossroads but I’ve been wrong. One path has appeared to be the “right” one but I have to stop being in denial because it will hold days on end of energy traps. No matter what I do – those traps will not go away. Unfortunately I cannot fill the holes I can only acknowledge them and steer clear. So, I’ve been looking more closely at the other options. Another direction feels too easy – a level course with not much challenge. And yet a third leads to a bench where I would just sit and watch the world go by – a calm & peaceful choice but not one that will make me happy. I need to have the faith and courage to follow the fourth path. It is one that will have dips and hills (that’s just life) but one where I won’t continue to spin in the muck. It is a choice of joy and passion and good but it looks very different than I thought it would a year ago. There is a reason for my being indecisive. This indecisiveness has held me for too long. It’s time to listen to my gut and move on.
So YES – when in doubt…
Listen to Oprah!
I know what I’m passionate about. I know what creates energy in my life and I most certainly now know what destroys it. A wise Oprah says, “Feel the power of focusing on what excites you.”
I promise you more of the passionate stuff to come – like glitter, and color, and love – for they are what excite me!
Today’s art was created in wax, watercolor, and threads.