I let bad things get to me.
I see senseless mass murder, children who need more love & attention, people who are dying for food or medicine or from illness. I see homeless veterans, abused animals, flag burnings, people dying from hatred in the name of God and the list of injustices and tragedy goes on and on and on. I don’t want to always be numb to it. Most days I have a stronger defense mechanism. I can separate myself. Most days I can look past what I can’t change. And then some days it comes pouring in. It overwhelms.
In the last week or so I’ve felt especially fragile. Maybe it’s hormonal or perhaps I’m over tired or the pain has been worse. I’m sure I could find something or someone to blame this current state on – or a number of things actually. I could but I won’t because these feelings are all in my control. I’m choosing to let this all in right now. I need to spend a few days feeling and be affected by the sadness and the difficulties of others and the injustice in the world. I need to acknowledge that suffering happens in this world and that it is heard by people like me who have so much – who can live in a bubble and never let ourselves make it real.
I don’t know real suffering. My reality, my world – is blessed. So many people live through days I cannot even begin to imagine. Some days I have to weep for them or I can’t go on.
I’ll find my way. If we don’t allow ourselves to let it in at least for a bit we run the risk of becoming apathetic. Apathy won’t do. So, Let it in and then get on with life. Throw glitter, sparkle, and focus on joy once again. If we could all just hold love in our hands and our hearts then – perhaps. Perhaps.
Peace and light and love to you all.
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